A pretty Green color...

So I have decided to start college in the Fall. Excuse me while I scream at the top of my lungs..... OK ALL BETTER NOW :)



I really am excited.
I'm scared shitless, apprehensive and excited wrapped up in one big ball of WHY DID I GIVE ALCOHOL UP FOR LENT nerves.

So the next question people ask is, so what are you going to be?

You mean I have to be something?

Like, Like a GROWN UP??

EXCUSE ME AGAIN...........alrighty then I'm better now.


First I have to explain that me going to school, means starting with one popsicle stick and working my way up. And I don't see one of those fancy popsicle stick log cabins being finished in my future anytime soon.



I would love to toy with the idea that I will graduate college before my oldest son does.
But honestly, as sad as it is (you know because he is only in 7 th grade) that probably won't happen......


I'm not putting a time limit on myself, just go, enjoy the experience and try something new.


Why do those words sound and feel so much better when I'm telling one of my kids that?


I want my kids to experience the world. And I really do mean that. As much as I will miss them when they grow up, I want them to do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING they want to do. With nothing holding them back. Especially a broken hearted mother. I will be fine after the medication sets in fact :)


I wish growing up we would of had talks about college and challenges that will be met in life. And always knowing that I could do anything that I wanted to do.


So now I am a 33 year old college wanna be or is it an almost be, since I am going to go?


Whatever it is, I'm excited, shitless and all.



So what would I like to be??



SERIOUSLY??



A writer....



There I said it, I'll wait for your snorting laughter to die down.... you better now??



As simple and silly as it sounds, that's it.



Will that happen?



Well it kind of already has.



Were all writers on here, telling our stories.



You all have allowed me into your homes and hearts with my silly ramblings about my beautifully crazy world.



I have received such nice comments and emails about my writings from people all around this wonderful blogging world.



You all have given me a healthily dose of confidence to be able to say those words OUT LOUD!



(Yes, Heidi you really did say it out loud)



Now will I make anything with those feelings in the outside world??



Maybe.



One day.



But not today.



Today I'm painting my kids bathroom :)



Popsicle sticks people, popsicle sticks!!