Thursday, February 5, 2009

Was she a Thunder Cat??

Were in our 6th week of my husbands NEW travel schedule and let me just say this as eloquently as sucks!

With no end in sight, I'm trying to get used to this gone 2 to 3 days a week thing again and man did I tell you it SUCKS!

When Hannah was an infant Brian traveled 3 days a week every other week for about a year. Let me just tell you having an infant, a 3 year old and a 6 year old and no husband home at night was HARD. But I got used to it and we made it work.

I know that people have husbands that are gone a lot more than mine or god forbid not there at all and I really should not be bitching complaining. But I'm just in a mood this morning.

I just feel like I can't get it all together this time. Let me rephrase that, if I could get some SLEEP while he was gone, then maybe I could get it all together.

I always feel like I need to keep one eye open, "just in case" something happens.
Not like we don't have an alarm system and 2 dogs to let me know when something is going on.

I just need to relax, yes I do, do that sometimes.
I'm pausing for a moment so you all can stop laughing at me.
(are you done, daddy?)

Anyway, any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
Please don't tell me to take something, because then how would I become SHE - RA in the middle of the night and defend the universe if I was in a drug induced sleep??

Was SHE RA in the Thunder Cats, because all of a sudden I feel like I should be doing the THUNDER CATS.....OOOOO call.

Is that right or am I really just falling asleep at the wheel of life?



Denise said...

I was the same way for a long time after Darrell died. When he was in the hospital, I slept because I was so exhausted. But after he died, there were many listless nights. I would hear creaks and think "what was that?" I do have a yappy, barking dog -- Fifi, my Yorkie, so I knew that she would alert me if something was going on outside. Even if it was a bird. Thanks Fifi, but save it for something LARGER.

I think, with time, you'll get used to it. That's what I finally did. I just got used to it. Sorry if I don't have any better advice then that.

I'm sorry that he has to travel. I can read in your posts how close you two are so I know how much you miss him. I'm sure that's actually have your trouble. Don't feel guilty that you're struggling with the change. You ARE capable of doing it without him, you're just not used to it. Don't beat yourself up about it. Just give yourself some time. And a little slack. ;>)

Elizabeth said...

Alas, in the three channels that we had in my youth, we did not get to see He Man or Thunder Cats. I am scarred because of it.

I do the same thing. Especially the first night Darren is gone. So, then I'm Zombie Mom the next day.

Like we could open up a can of Whoop Ass if we tried at 2 am! Although, never underestimate the mother lion!!